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july 21, 2025 - answering a question

engelsbeginn asked:

 

"Wow! Did you grow your hair with the intent to sell it? Is selling hair normal there? (It's not typical in the USA, we typically donate it but from my understanding, a lot of donated hair is trashed or not used for intended purposes.) I bet your head feels so lightweight!"

 

No, selling hair is not very common in Russia, I haven't ever heard a person talking about their experience of selling hair before. I don't believe it would be less common to sell hair in the US, because when there's the demand for hair extensions, there's the industry of selling hair, it's just a bit hidden. I might be wrong, but I'm pretty sure you'll find salons buying hair in your area if you search for them.

I absolutely didn't grow my hair out to sell it. I had a shaggy mullet haircut when I started getting into lolita fashion and thought it would be very fitting to grow super long hair and wear it with short bangs. For me it was just another hairstyle I'd like to try out — I lived with all sorts of different hair lengths before (including very short) and was curious to try extremely long hair, because it got a very princessy feel to it.

My goal was to grow it at the hips level and everything has been going well, but after a certain length it started bothering me too much. Although I loved how it looked, I couldn't even wear it loose, because I couldn't stand the feeling of it on my skin, the hotness and the tangles. Tangles were the worst. I think all long hair, no matter the texture, starts tangling like crazy after a certain point, because when there's a loop, even if there's zero friction between the hairs, they are too long for the loop to break on its own.

It started taking me more and more time to wash and detangle it. I felt like it was not worth it, because I always wore it in braids. What's the point of having long, luscious hair, if it's always braided? I decided that it's enough and I want to cut it off. I want everything in my life to be as low-maintenance as possible.

I told my friend that I want to cut it, and she said that I could probably sell it and gain some money out of doing something I'd do anyways. I also remembered how several years ago another hairdresser I went to was hinting at me that I could earn some money for my hair and she can introduce me to someone who'll buy it (I think I'd get scammed, because this lady turned out to be super shady and I never went to her salon again lol).

I started doing market research on one russian marketplace for second-hand goods and realized the minimum price they'd pay me is higher than what I expected. I found several salons and sent them videos of my hair, eventually choosing one with the best offer and most pleasant people to talk to. Another salon tried to outbid them and offered me more, but I went with the initial one anyways.

The hairdresser who cut off my hair turned out to be really sweet and interesting to talk to, we had conversations throughout the whole procedure. I asked her lots of questions about the hair extensions industry and it was interesting to listen about her experience. The calculations she did to determine the final cost were super transparent and she paid me even more than I expected out of her initial offer.

As for donating: honestly, the idea of someone seeing so much value in my hair that they're willing to pay a lot to wear it as extensions is more appealing to me than someone getting a free wig made of it. I'd rather give it to someone who's ready to go lengths for it. With selling I have the guarantee that it's going to reach the person who will actually appreciate it.

 

july 19, 2025 - got a pixie cut

finally cut off my hair, I waited for this for so long! I sold it, what if someday I'll meet the person with my hair on the street...

the weight totaled to 95 grams and the length was 45-49 cm on average (with a couple strands being as short as 35 cm tho). I was paid 14500 rubles for it, which was twice as much as I expected. I think the new style fits me absurdly well. I look in the mirror and I'm like damn I'm like the girl from Chungking Express or Winona Ryder in girl interrupted

 

july 12, 2025 - cool math words in russian

 

Погрешность — observational error (or measurement error), comes from the verb грешить — to sin.

 

Замечательные пределы — "wonderful limits", a special name for several analysis expressions:

They are called wonderful because they're simple, beautiful, and many useful corollaries follow from them.

 

Многочлен — polynomial, can be directly translated as... many penises. The main source of jokes for all middle schoolers. You can also have двучлен (binomial, two penises), трехчлен (trinomial, three penises) and so on. If you're feeling brave, you could translate кольцо многочленов (polynomial ring) as cock ring.

 

 

june 10, 2025 - bought a Pixel phone

I like Pixel phones because they are well-made, have nice hardware and very good cameras. But for me the most important thing in Pixels is that you can easily install custom roms on them and the best custom roms are made for Pixels.

Some years ago I had a xiaomi phone and I wanted to try installing a custom rom on it. Turns out these companies deliberately make it as hard as possible for the user. I had to submit an application to xiaomi for unlocking the bootloader. They review your application for minimum of 2 weeks and can reject it without any explanation. Absolutely wild that you have to ask the company permission to install software of your choice on the device that you bought with your own money, but whatever. I waited and they approved my application. I ran into many unexpected problems, but it was mostly due to my lack of skill and bad quality of the installation software. I bricked my phone twice during the process, second time was so severe I had to disassemble the phone and short-circuit the motherboard to bring it back to life. After that I gave up. I didn't regret the time wasted, because I learned a lot and the process was fun, but I ordered a Pixel 3 immediately after bricking xiaomi for the second time.

It's extremely easy to flash a custom rom on a Pixel phone. Unlocking the bootloader is achieved by a single tap in the settings. The best custom roms out there — Graphene OS and Calyx OS — are made exclusively for pixels. The installation process is straightforward and takes no time at all. I chose Calyx OS and I think it legit took me, like, 10 minutes to install it. I used it as my daily driver for several years, until the motherboard got fried some months ago.

I finally bought another Pixel a few days ago and this time I'm trying out Graphene. Calyx and Graphene are very similar in their goals (both are open-source, privacy & security oriented) and are not that different, but the two communities HATE each other with religious might, lol. I'd say the main difference between them is that Graphene is like "we will NOT tell anyone ANYTHING. Everyone who wants your data CAN GO FUCK THEMSELVES" while Calyx is like "ok we WILL give them SOME data, but we'll spoof it and fake it while they think it's legit"

Been loving the new phone so far and taking many photos. I think carrying a phone with a nice camera with me everywhere makes me notice beauty more often.

Pixel 6 on the left, Pixel 3 (broken) on the right:

 

 

june 2, 2025

мне всегда хотелось отрастить очень длинные волосы хотя бы раз в жизни, и вот я здесь — мои волосы сейчас на уровне талии. они очень красивые, но они абсолютно бесполезно красивые. я никогда не ношу их распущенными: я не выношу ощущения волос, касающихся моей шеи, мне очень жарко и я не хочу их дамажить. я не понимаю, как другие женщины всё время ходят с распущенными — это же как ходить в меховой шапке с шарфом. 99% времени я ношу их в двух косичках, распуская только перед мытьем головы, а когда волосы высыхают, я сразу заплетаю их обратно. в чем смысл длинных волос, если я даже не получаю эстетических профитов от них, но так сильно мучаюсь с уходом?

я стала ежедневно думать о том, как быстро короткие волосы высыхают, как расческа не встречает с ними никакого сопротивления, как мило я бы смотрелась с пикси. я думаю, до конца лета волосы не доживут. друзья советуют мне выжать максимум из моих волос, пока они всё ещё прикреплены ко мне, и попробовать разнообразные прически, научиться крутить локоны и плести какие-то интересные косички и хвостики. советуют снимать длину постепенно, чтобы попробовать разные стрижки, раз уж можно так разгуляться.

но я чет хочу просто срезать и всё, и больше не мучаться. я думаю, я срежу их сразу, как только сделаю хорошие фотографии на память. еще мне интересно попробовать продать их: теоретически, за длинные и здоровые светлые волосы могут предложить достаточно много. меня не столько мотивируют деньги, сколько забавляет идея, что с моими волосами будет ходить какая-то краля с патриков, сделавшая себе наращивание

 

may 26, 2025 - fit check

An outfit that I wore today. My classmates said that I look like:

Other unusual things that happened today:

 

 

apr 16, 2025

I've been a bit discouraged to write entries for my website lately because the current layout is misdirecting. I placed emphasis on the things that aren't actually that important for me and missed out the stuff that excites me. What I mean by that: I think what defines me the most is that I consider myself a modern day adventurer. Exploring my surroundings and interacting with the environment with my friends gives me a lot of meaning. Basically, I try to live in the real world RPG game. Urban exploration is one of my main interests, it started from just wandering through the old city in attempt to find something interesting, then the focus shifted to getting into abandoned places, then I started doing what I'd call "urban bouldering" — interacting with the city through climbing, and now I picked up parkour, which gave me a multitude of more ways to interact with my environment. The whole world is my playground. Being curious about my environment and physically active in fun ways is a core aspect of my life.

So how come that I have a dedicated page for dolls that I only take out of the box every few months and not for urbex, a significant part of my life? Well, it's a monstrous thing to tackle. I'd need to come up with a different layout for that page, because the general layout of my site wouldn't work for it, figure out a better way to host and embed photos and videos, structure my extensive urbex of the past into blogposts. Another problem is that I wouldn't be sharing videos of me and my friends doing impressive physical stuff for privacy reasons and just posting pics of the places wouldn't be as interesting and meaningful.

I do have a private medium for sharing my urbex that only a handful of people I know personally have access to, which is enough, and I'm not sure if I even need a stripped-down version of it on my website. But without it my website doesn't feel very personal. These aesthetics I pursue on my website are quite secondary to who I am.

 

feb 11, 2025  

I want to share my favorite song: it's music controller by Capsule. It's that type of happy danceable music that has a subtle hint of melancholy which I really like. I recently looked up the lyrics and started loving this song even more:

   

Main effects include recovery from the pain and fever of love. Please read the instructions carefully before use.

Since the stimulation is a bit strong,
Beginners in love and children under 15,
Please be careful.

Listening too much isn't necessarily bad, but be mindful of addiction. Be sure to follow the prescribed dosage and usage.

If you've realized you're lovesick,
That's when the capsule comes in.
Filled with love, dreams, and sound —
Its side effect is happiness.

If your heartbreak still hasn't healed,
That's when the capsule comes in.
Let your heart ride the rhythm,
Let it sink in — the Music Controller.

When sounds are blended together, It becomes a Music Controller that works wonders for love.

The Music Controller is a capsule-shaped medicine that melts into the heart. A capsule-shaped medicine made from 0s and 1s.

 

dec 23, 2024  

I haven't really played video games since high school. I've been thinking: no time for games! I have to prepare for my university entrance exams! Then I got into university, and now there's some exam looming on the horizon at any given time, so I'm in the perpetual state of "No time for games! I have to prepare for the exams!" This semester is going a bit more smoothly than the previous ones, though, so here's what I've been playing lately.

 

My significant other recently showed me "A Short Hike". It's a game about coming to visit your aunt who lives in a distant cabin in the mountains. You're waiting for a call from someone very special, but there's no cellphone reception, except for the highest peak of the mountain, so you go on a short hike to the top of the mountain to make that call.

It's a very small game — 1-3 hours long. You have to parkour, rock climb and glide in it. My boyfriend sat beside me the entire time I played it, enjoying how much fun I was having. The closing scene is breathtakingly beautiful and I was playing through it with tears in my eyes and my mouth wide open, and my boyfriend cried too — from being able to give me such an experience and seeing me so happy.

 

I also randomly purchased a Wii U to play Splatoon. Saw a listing in good condition for very, very cheap and knew I have to get it. Me and dad met up with the guy who was selling it the same evening. The seller lived in a small house almost outside of the city, in a place with no civilization whatsoever, surrounded by a forest, no asphalt on the road, no street lights. He invites us to the house, and we can smell they're definitely keeping a chicken coup. He takes us to his room, and there are assembled lego sets everywhere, on every single surface, and where there aren't lego sets — there are bourbon bottles. I'm not joking, he literally had at least a couple of dozen bottles scattered everywhere. And lots of different consoles. When we were leaving, we also noticed kids shoes at the door. A very funny and strange acquaintance.

I really enjoyed Splatoon on Switch several years ago, but online functions on Switch are hidden behind a paywall and dad eventually modded our console, so couldn't play it anymore. Nintendo closed all servers for Wii U a long time ago, but there's Pretendo — a FOSS replacement for them. Now I'm playing Splatoon again on these pirate servers and having tons of fun!

 

Also started playing Pop'n Music on my PS2, got a dedicated controller for it. It's TRANSPARENT! My favorite genre of electronic devices! I love it when you can see the motherboard inside :^)

Pop'n Music is so much fun, it's as if the whole game was made to cater to my taste. I play it on the TV, and dad likes to come and watch me play it. He says he gets this feeling of immense coziness from seeing me playing. We are spending the long winter evenings like that, all gathered in one room — me playing Pop'n, dad playing his own games on the computer or watching me play, mom doing her own thing.

 

Another notable game I played recently is Balatro, it's just too good! I already wrote a bit about it in the previous post. It's a new genre for me, never played games like it before. Several friends of mine were playing it too, and I loved competing and discussing tactics and strategies with them.

 

dec 2, 2024 - I had a dream about Balatro

There's this new video game Balatro, it's a roguelike deck-builder and turn-based strategy. Here is how you play: you’re dealt a hand of nine normal playing cards, and then you play the best poker hand you can muster from them: flush, straight, three of a kind, etc. The goal is to maximize the profit with the resources you're given. It's just... so, so good... I've been playing it a ton recently.

 

Yesterday I had a dream: I was putting together lolita coords, but each piece of clothing was also a playing card, and besides having to put together a cohesive look, I also needed the items to form a poker hand. The dresses in my dream looked similar to these: